Wednesday, July 12

Tick, Tick, Tick...

I have been ready to give birth for, well...months, actually. I really enjoy pregnancy in some ways - the honor of being involved so intimately with an incredible, mind-blowing miracle, watching my body change in ways that don't seem possible, bonding with the little one inside, and even the attention and pampering from family and strangers alike. This has been a harder pregnancy for me, though, both mentally and physically. I feel older.

So here's my dilemma. After months of being "ready" to give birth (and saying over and over I just have to make it through the first two weeks of PSP!!), I need labor to hold off until at least Tuesday. My doctor is out of town. I love my doctor, Dr. Nakamura. I rely on him to help me make the best choices for myself and my babies. I trust him with our lives. He is a great, incredibly wise and amazingly intelligent, Christian man. He has been the hands who have been the first to touch my other two children, and he is the only doctor I have ever had.

Logic tells me that it will all work out fine. Allan keeps reminding me that Dr. Nak trusts the other doctors in his practice, so we can, too. Those other doctors delivered three of my nephews and several cousins. But the nightmares have been ugly. The ones where I die during delivery because he was not there. But, in case you weren't aware, logic goes pretty far out the window when one is over 38 weeks pregnant!

So for the next few days I will hold off on long walks, massaging pressure points, eating spicy foods and all of those other triggers for labor. I think I'll just lie really still and watch the clock until Tuesday.


Davis Family said...

We can't wait to hear about your new arrival (oh, sorry, perhaps we can wait...until after you doctor comes back).

sarah said...

Isn't it wierd the things that a pregnant woman thinks about. I find that there is one little detail that I obsess over with each pregnancy. It usually ends up to be a tiny unimportant part to the whole. Guess it must be part of that nesting thing. Can't wait to be where you are. I am just getting ready to start the third trimester. YEAH! Tuesday is fast approaching. I'm sure you and your bundle of joy will be in excellent hands, even if they are another drs.

rebecca marie said...

i'm sorry you're still pregnant... but i'll also pray for you to last until dr. nakamura (i'm assuming there is only one dr. nakamura in this specialty in portland) is back. and that they are the easiest days of your pregnancy. i can vouch for him, actually, and he's wonderful.

i used a midwife for my second pregnancy, but some procedures she can't do and he is the doctor that did them (a hospital amnio and a c-section... boooooo) and he made me feel great about both procedures.

you are in good hands with him, and i would have faith in anyone he works with, as i believe he would only partner with the best (such as my midwife).

more importantly, you're in God's hands.

KMiV said...

I had you, Alan, Trinity, and Connor, and the baby in prayer today before reading this. Will continue to pray for your comfort.

Ps. 46:10 "Cease striving and know that I am God..."

Cheryl said...

Bless you. Was praying for you and new baby White today. love you--