Thursday, May 25

To a little girl on her third birthday...

Three years old - how exciting! I wonder what kind of party you asked for this year. Was it Dora or Blues Clues? Or maybe with the influence of your older sister you are already into princesses or Barbie. I bet it will be fun, no matter what character adorns your cake!

Time is funny - I can't decide if it seems like it has been just a day or two since we lost you or if it has been forever. I guess it has been half of your lifetime since we were your family. You are probably such a funny kid now - full of energy and strong in will.

We think of you all of the time. I recently confessed to some family that I look for you every time I'm in a mall, seeing all of those families walking and talking together. Allan said he does the same thing at the park. I don't know what I'd do if I did actually see you again. Would I introduce myself to your family? Would I watch you for a little while from a distance - just to see you laugh and hear you talk? Would it break my heart or would I feel comfort in seeing that you were well cared for and happy?

You know that's what we've always prayed for - that you would be part of a family where you would know boundless love. And more importantly, we pray you are in a place where you can get to know Jesus. I'm sure our first prayer has been answered beyond measure already. I don't know if the second one has been answered...yet. I do know, without a shadow of a doubt, that the Lord is going to surround you with opportunities to meet and fall in love with Jesus in your lifetime. Although it will be your choice, I believe that He will make it hard for you not to love Him, if for no other reason than to allow us to be with you in heaven. I look forward to that day.

So, my dear girl, enjoy this very special third birthday! As we silently acknowledge this day of celebration for you, we thank God for the amazing, special gift you were to us.

6 comments:

Lori Ann said...

She was a wonderful blessing for your family. That was a nice tribute.

Cheryl said...

Bless you. And her. I know He sees her. And calls her by name.
You are right to miss her. To remember her. To look for her.
It's what our Father does for us.
I love you.

Jason Hill said...

wow. touching thoughts.

Amanda Peterson said...

Thanks for being so candid with your thoughts. I'll say a prayer for her today.

KMiV said...

Thanks Christi for that last post. I know this has been tough for you both.

Steve Maxwell said...

Lord have mercy! K-White, I am praying you, Allan and the children. God bless you for you thoughts and thank you for allowing the rest of us into your life at such a delicate time. Love you all.